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| so im been thinking... and well really i wish sometime i didnt think but i still do lol but i've been thinking about how hard it is for me to go home. all the old crap in my life will be there but i know i just have to trust that God will keep me strong
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| I LOVE **** *I******
SO STOP CAN WE PLZ JUST BE TOGETHER
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| i really dont know whats next???!!?!?!?!
i have soooo much to do this week, i have a ton of projects and im helping out w/the play which means i have to be up by 7 am tomorrow.... sigh
so there a really sweet guy in some of my classes and well i dont know what to think sometime i think he likes me and i dont like him other times i think i like him and he doesnt like me.... either way i think that he is supper sweet and im glad that we are friends.
zack has called me and wants to get together over break i dont know if i will or wont but i like that were talking again as friends.
josh wont talk to me and i miss talking to him i think he has a new girl and thats cool but i hate that he cant and wont talk to me... i have tried to talk to him but he never calls me back or anything so i guess im giving up w/him at least till break and i can see him
ok well its late and i have a headach and i have to be up at the but crack of don
so sweet dreams good night
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| so its only been a few days in the new 2008 year and already i think i havent done i thing i was hoping to do lol...sigh
well i havent been really watching what i've been eating... sigh
i had a big blow out talk about christen (and the grandparents are all ahhhh) but so is everyone else so i guess its only fair
and i miss reading my Bible the other night cause i was soo sleepy which is lame i know but i was... ooo and i talked to zack again i called and i know that i wasnt going to and that i didnt want to but i couldnt really help it he called and idk thats life ppl cant change over night but oh well im trying and ill get better i hope lol oh well ok i better go read before i fall asleep
night yall
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| ...wow so much has happened!
well first off HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
lol ok now that, thats out of the way..... a lot has been to me and things have been floating around inside my brain that now....i know they really just not matter. i felt like i lost my sister and in a way i did, the sister that i had we never come back and well i need to just understand that. even if she broken up w/"him" today it wouldnt matter to much has been said and done so this year im done! if she wants to get married... i dont care i wont be there, i lost my sister in my mind and nothing going to change that.
i also got really scared for a minute or two cause i thought i lost my best friend, i love my best friend but idk i guess i was feeling lonely and thought that we had something more... idk i must have been on cloud 9 or something cause i almost lost everything because i pushed him to hard. if he doesnt want to be w/someone i guess i cant stop him. he has to live his own life and i know will and he'll be fine but i just wish i could be there and do more for him but i guess its a good thing that i cant lol
ok i have come to turns that my love life sucks.... or i should say i dont really have one anymore but just because i dont have one doesnt mean that i should go back to what i had just to settle w/someone that i know will kiss me.... i mean i love being kissed but being loved is worth so much more, and well i know that i wont get a man till im 100% right w/God so...
i want to get better w/God, not just so i can get a man but for me, i need him and he is always there and looking back on things i could have so much ...well lets just said that about 60% of my stress if i could just give it to God i wouldnt be stressed about it lol i know God will make a way, and i know that God can make me strong, and i know that this year i want to be closer to God than i have ever been in the past!
also ok i know im fat and i need to lost weight...sigh.... im going to do it, im going to hate it but i want to be healthy and i know its the best thing for me... and it might help w/the whole guy thing lol
i have a lot of plains and i still have a lot of things im working thru but God will show me the way and ill be ok
alright its late im going to read my Bible and go to bed!!!
night i love you all and for anyone that might read this thanks and i love you and im praying for you kiss
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